Saturday 16 May 2015

Static

if humans were measured with amperes,
you’d be a live wire,
humming with life,
burning fervently;
as if electricity courses through your veins
and bleeds from your heart;
you are a palpitation,
you are very much alive.
i wish i was more like you.

you and i,
we were parallel opposites,
but we were a series circuit,
two resistors burning with shared ferocity,
two people living with shared trust,
holding and looking out for each other,
you always had my back
and i had yours;
there was no me without you.

but just like how electric currents short-circuit,
our friendship was short-lived.
and now all that’s left between us 
is static silence.
but i need to understand,
how were two strangers once best friends?
when did all our trust wear thin? 
if we weren’t meant to be friends,

why’d we ever begin? 

Friday 8 May 2015

What Are We Again?

things i have to say to you:

  1. why didn’t you tell me about her?
  2. i thought we were best friends
  3. don’t best friends tell each other everything?
  4. but you do have a right not to tell me though
  5. although i wished you had.
  6. maybe we weren’t best friends then.
  7. or maybe i wasn’t your best friend.
  8. you’re my best friend.
  9. i’m not mad at you
  10. just a bit let down
  11. because you’re the first person i tell about anything
  12. good or bad. 
  13. i tell you things i’d never tell anyone else
  14. because i trust you
  15. and for a while 
  16. i thought you trusted me too.
  17. guess not.
  18. and maybe 
  19. maybe you trust them more
  20. that’s okay.
  21. you’re still my person even if i’m not yours
  22. why didn't you tell me?
  23. i told you everything.
  24. i’m not mad
  25. i’m heartbroken,
  26. not because you didn’t tell me about her
  27. god i could care less.
  28. i’m heartbroken because you were hurting
  29. and i didn’t even notice
  30. didn’t even know
  31. couldn’t even be there for you
  32. do you know how horrible i feel?
  33. because even if i’m not your best friend
  34. you’re mine,
  35. and i want to be there for you
  36. no matter what.
  37. because isn’t that what best friends are for?
  38.  unless
  39. we aren’t best friends.