What Are We Again?

things i have to say to you:

1. why didn’t you tell me about her?
2. i thought we were best friends
3. don’t best friends tell each other everything?
4. but you do have a right not to tell me though
5. although i wished you had.
6. maybe we weren’t best friends then.
7. or maybe i wasn’t your best friend.
8. you’re my best friend.
9. i’m not mad at you
10. just a bit let down
11. because you’re the first person i tell about anything
12. good or bad. 
13. i tell you things i’d never tell anyone else
14. because i trust you
15. and for a while 
16. i thought you trusted me too.
17. guess not.
18. and maybe 
19. maybe you trust them more
20. that’s okay.
21. you’re still my person even if i’m not yours
22. why didn't you tell me?
23. i told you everything.
24. i’m not mad
25. i’m heartbroken,
26. not because you didn’t tell me about her
27. god i could care less.
28. i’m heartbroken because you were hurting
29. and i didn’t even notice
30. didn’t even know
31. couldn’t even be there for you
32. do you know how horrible i feel?
33. because even if i’m not your best friend
34. you’re mine,
35. and i want to be there for you
36. no matter what.
37. because isn’t that what best friends are for?
38.  unless
39. we aren’t best friends.