Safekeeping (or alternatively, Icarus)

SAFEKEEPING (or alternatively, ICARUS)

7:03am

Have a good day at school today

3:24pm

I hope you had a great day

7:24pm

What did you have for dinner?

11:57pm

Are you okay?

You deserve to be happy

Please don’t be sad.

                                                             9:22am

                                     Don’t worry about me.

And I will keep you safe

From the tides and waves

That threaten to crush you

I will burn myself with matches

To keep you safe from the fire

I will shelter you from the storm

You can choose to seek asylum

And I will be your sanctuary,

Your refuge and your safe haven

At the edge of a world about to crumble

I will shelter you from the pain

And I will keep you safe.

Why is it I choose to protect you

When I’m more likely to shatter

You are made of bold titanium

But my glass heart will be your shield

Because I cannot bear to see you in pain

To see you cry would tear me apart.

12:05pm

Okay, but let me know if you need anything.

                                                          2:28pm

                                            Leave me alone.

Does my concern suffocate you?

It was not my intention

To asphyxiate you with my affection

I only wished to never see you get hurt

The same way I hurt myself

All I wanted was to keep you safe.

I see now that you are safest

When you are out of my reach

My hands that intertwine with yours

Are more likely to strangle you in your sleep

It was not my intention to hurt you

But it seems that was all I did.

Keep away from fire

Pour me a glass of your gasoline tears

Watch me quiver and burn to ashes

And I will keep you warm

Conjure me a lullaby of your darkest fears

And I will sing you to sleep

9:44am

I’m sorry.

                                                      10:33am

                                                        I know.

Icarus was foolish to love the sun

Its ferocity was bound to singe his wings

Yet he thought about its warmth

And maybe it was all worth it

The pain soothed his wounds

And so he let the sun set him ablaze

The sun loved Icarus just as much

But it singed his lovely fragile wings

Because you love something too much

All you ever seem to do is hurt it

You don’t want to hurt the people you love

But you end up hurting the people you love most.

I set myself on fire to keep you warm

But you chose to drown yourself in me

Keep Icarus away from the sun

And his ignorance will keep him safe

Keep away from me

And I will keep you safe.

You cannot love me as intensely

As I choose to love you

And I will always hurt myself

For loving who I want you to be

Instead of loving you

Please don’t blame yourself.

I have loved you

But all I did was wear you out

I have kept you warm

But all I did was burn myself out

I have to let go of you

Because I want what’s best for you.

We accept the love we think we deserve

You do not deserve to be drowned

By a girl with overambitious wishes

Infatuated with unattainable standards of love

I am nothing but a flaw in chemistry

And the love you deserve is flawless.

Interlude

3:04am

Why do you always take so long to reply?

                                                       7:04am

                                                    I’m sorry.

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